This is how screwed I am. Please read. I beg of you.

From my chat with my real life friend.

Beast (1/19/2009 6:08:52 PM): LUCY
Beast (1/19/2009 6:08:57 PM): HELP ME
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:01 PM): I CAN'T STOP CRYING
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:04 PM): T_T
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:04 PM): why>
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:06 PM): ?
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:09 PM): that's not you
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:21 PM): so what happened?'
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:30 PM): I accidentally
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:36 PM): let my temper get the best of me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:40 PM): and yelled at my mom
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:40 PM): and?
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:43 PM): oh
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:47 PM): and had a huge fight
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:09:49 PM): oh
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:52 PM): and now
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:56 PM): my dad said
Beast (1/19/2009 6:09:58 PM): when he gets home
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:06 PM): he's taking me away
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:17 PM): I bet that or he is gonna beat me up
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:20 PM): like last time
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:10:22 PM): what did you say to your mom?
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:30 PM): but this time with no one on my side
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:33 PM): well
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:37 PM): I was on the computer
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:47 PM): and listening to music
Beast (1/19/2009 6:10:55 PM): trying to figure out math
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:00 PM): didn't hear my mom yelling at me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:03 PM): when I got down
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:12 PM): my mom yelled at me for being on my computer too much
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:22 PM): and playing
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:27 PM): You can ask my friends online
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:33 PM): I'm not on over 75% of the time
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:47 PM): I have a huge habit of sitting by my computer to do homework
Beast (1/19/2009 6:11:57 PM): so I got down
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:00 PM): she yelled at me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:03 PM): I got ticked
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:05 PM): and
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:12 PM): accidentally yelled at my mom
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:19 PM): saying that I don't play on the computer
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:28 PM): and now that my memory is somewhat coming back
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:36 PM): I just remembered
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:44 PM): that she was like you are upstairs too much
Beast (1/19/2009 6:12:49 PM): you aren't downstairs enough
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:12:56 PM): what?! that's stupid
Beast (1/19/2009 6:13:16 PM): and I somewhat calmly (but angryly) said that there's nothing to do down here
Beast (1/19/2009 6:13:23 PM): and then she got somewhat ticked
Beast (1/19/2009 6:13:29 PM): and pointed out the dishes
Beast (1/19/2009 6:13:54 PM): and then I got ticked off even more because she started getting ticked at me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:14:31 PM): and pointed out that I hate picking up trash my mom puts in the sink
Beast (1/19/2009 6:14:38 PM): and my dad as well
Beast (1/19/2009 6:14:39 PM): and my brothers
Beast (1/19/2009 6:14:47 PM): and said they should use the trashcan
Beast (1/19/2009 6:15:01 PM): I've been ticked off about that for a while so I never really did the dishes
Beast (1/19/2009 6:15:07 PM): as a solution to my anger
Beast (1/19/2009 6:15:33 PM): I knew that kinda makes my parents even more stressed because of work
Beast (1/19/2009 6:15:40 PM): and how they have to clean up and stuff
Beast (1/19/2009 6:15:59 PM): but in my mind I wish they could kinda put some stuff in the right place so it's easier for me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:16:08 PM): so I told my mom about that
Beast (1/19/2009 6:16:13 PM): and we started argueing
Beast (1/19/2009 6:16:32 PM): and after I lost it and wasn't as angery any more
Beast (1/19/2009 6:16:40 PM): I realized I went too far
lucyhan94
(1/19/2009 6:17:07 PM): what i think is you should study really hard
and move away from that house as soon as possible. because your parents
aren't fair. they're too stressed about the resteraunt.
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:17:19 PM): you should also talk to your parents when they aren't angry
Beast (1/19/2009 6:17:52 PM): I couldn't help it
Beast (1/19/2009 6:17:56 PM): I didn't mean for it to happen
lucyhan94
(1/19/2009 6:18:03 PM): ask them to put the stuff that belongs in the
trash in the trash and the stuff that belongs in the sink in the siink
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:18:15 PM): i know how you feel about parents not listening to you
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:19 PM): well
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:27 PM): that's if my parents don't beat me up
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:18:28 PM): just wait until they're not angry and try to talk to them
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:33 PM): or literally kill me
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:37 PM): or send me away
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:42 PM): I remember now
Beast (1/19/2009 6:18:46 PM): I got so mad
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:18:47 PM): when your parents get in the door, start apologizing
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:13 PM): I accidentally screamed out that "MAYBE I WILL MOVE AWAY. I DON"T WANT TO LIVE HERE ANYWYAS."
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:19 PM): ;-
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:19:19 PM): oh
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:20 PM): ;
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:41 PM): Apologizing never worked
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:19:41 PM): you could move in with me?
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:19:49 PM): try anyway
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:50 PM): I did that last witner
Beast (1/19/2009 6:19:54 PM): *winter break
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:01 PM): and my dad has a really bad temper
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:05 PM): oh
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:14 PM): and it doesn't go away until a few weeks or so
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:18 PM): i have to go. i'll call you and talk?
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:23 PM): It's a scarring experience
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:25 PM): I can't talk
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:27 PM): is that ok?
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:29 PM): oh
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:30 PM): I can't stop crying
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:36 PM): gasping for air
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:39 PM): still... i'lll call you
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:43 PM): it'll be fine
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:44 PM): ok
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:48 PM): bye
Beast (1/19/2009 6:20:53 PM): bye
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:20:57 PM): i have to get somestuff ready first
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:21:01 PM): try to calm yourself down
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:21:20 PM): cold water on your face. drink some water. think about something calm
lucyhan94 (1/19/2009 6:21:21 PM): bye

Btw, my parents don't hasistate. Especially my dad. He gets pissed, he stays pissed for like a few months.

...O.O

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
You have really strict parents. I think you should like, tell someone, especially if you get beat up. I mean, someone other then us, like authorities. Or something. IDK. Only if you're comfortable doing it, though. Like. D8 Sorry.

Like I can yell at my parents... Well, not my dad. But my mum, because we're both women, and it is like. Okay. Because we know that women can be bitches, because we are women. And we're more different.
Dad, on the other hand, is the only one who can use my own logic against me. Darn you to heck, genetics. owo

But please know you have my support! Ikr I am like only a crazy Canadian chick on the internet, but I like hope for the best for youuuu. D: Because you deserve better plz.

I want to talk to a concealer... but if my dad found out, I would be in a deeper ditch.

I don't really think there's much I can do, but I'll help any way I can.

I'M SORRY, I'M TRULY SORRY, BUT: